So, I haven't really been active over the past week or so, my friend has suffered from leukaemia for the past three years, going in and out of remission, battling hard, fighting hard and he always had a smile on his face. Last night I went out for my friend's birthday and we were having a good dance, at one AM I got a phone call from his girlfriend, I rang her back thinking "This is odd, why's she ringing me this late", turns out he had gone into kidney, liver and respiratory failure and was on a ventilator, and they suspected a brain bleed. They made him DNACPR and said if there was no sign of improvement within the next 12 hours, they were going to discontinue treatment due to how advanced things had got with him, the only reason they gave him this 'grace period' was because he had been in a similar condition before and pulled through. The family had also asked for only family and his girlfriend to visit him.
Today I was sitting at home, eating my lunch and my phone rang. His heart has stopped and he's gone. My friend of 7 years is gone. I think the only thing keeping me going right now and not having some huge breakdown over it all is the fact I now know he isn't in pain anymore. But fuck. Just fuck.
I am so, so sorry to hear about your loss. I've had some scary encounters with cancer myself.
Like you said, at least he isn't in pain anymore. And you were his friend throughout his treatment; That's what he would've been so grateful for.
Sorry to hear about your loss, dude. Sometimes in life you get hit with these hard times... can't imagine what you're going through. Stay strong and try to keep your head up.
I'm so sorry for your loss I know it must feel horrible, I too lost my best friend a couple of years ago and her death was in one of the worst ways possible. It's okay to just cry, if people tell you not to, fuck them, you can cry your heart out till your eyes go dry. We're here for you to talk to, if you ever need a chat buddy, we could talk about anything from pokemon to the wonders of the world. Wait..aren't those both the same? Anyhow, I'm sure your friend is in a better place and he's smiling, knowing that he had the best friend life could give him and he wants you to be happy. You don't have to get over this now, you don't have to get over it ever, but know that he would want you to be happy <3
I'm so sorry for you loss. I lost a very good friend two years ago to leukaemia, he didn't suffer much thought, he and his family found out friday night and by sunday he was gone. Have a good cry and just let all that pain go. My prays go to you, his family, and friends.
I'm terribly sorry for your loss. I'm sure he's extremely grateful that he had such a wonderful friend in you, and you can treasure the memories you two had together. Make sure you let yourself grieve in any way you wish. Stay strong, and remember we're all here for you on ck <3
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honestly go have a good cry. It will help relieve some of the pain, not all but a slight bit in just this moment.
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