I know, and the rational and responsible part of me totally gets that.
I guess when you've been doing something for so long, and it's basically all you do - well, I'm sure you can understand how hard that would be to let go and simply not do it anymore. I get that it's a dangerous and most likely stupid sport, if you really think about it, especially in the well-being sense. It's just hard to imagine life without that.
I'm still going to be optimistic and hope that I don't need surgery xD