i know i know, i disappeared. i miss all of you guys.
seriously. a lot of you are important to me, outside of cK as well.
i've grown pretty fond of a few of you besides @Bettser and not talking to you has been really difficult.
i have only been talking to @Mojo and @Raj via text, cuz nobody else loves me and they're my bffs.
although i did skype @jdswatsup the other night when i was supah high and tried to skype @Drizzy although he fucking hates me and didn't gimme a shout out /sob
@~Domenick~ was texting me for like a day and then stopped lol
some of you already know, but school is absolutely kicking. my. ass. i've failed 4/5 tests i've taken this semester, and it's really hitting me hard, emotionally and self esteem wise. i've never felt so fucking stupid in my life and i seriously feel like i'm too stupid for this major. i'm so stressed that i've been breaking out so bad, lowering my self esteem even more, and i've been so fucking tired from lack of sleep that i've been rude to customers and don't even give a fuck anymore.
this is the lowest i've ever been in my life. as most of you know too, work pretty much makes me bend over and take it 99% of the time and if they finish first then i'm shit outta luck. so i've taken an extra day off during the week (so now i'm down to only 25 hours/week) and i feel like i can finally start to breathe again.
i had my birthday a few weeks ago (and @jdswatsup was the first person to say happy b-day period!!) so i'm officially 21 now yay! my boyfriend of one year and i broke up because i couldn't handle anything when all i wanted to do was kill myself (but we're currently working things out) and i had sex with this hot 25yo i met but it was a huge mistake.
i feel like i've been pushing everyone away (irl mostly) because i'm in such a horrible mood all the time because i'm so overworked, stressed, and tired and it's wearing down on me. i have a select few people that are still there for me though, and i thank you all for that.
i need to start focusing on school a lot more, and figure things out so that i can start getting good grades, since, well THIS IS MY FUCKING MAJOR.
also i got pokemon y and i can't stop playing someone plz help me.
if i love you, and you love me, and you want my number so you can text me, shoot me a pm and i'll give it to you if i trust you/know you well enough.
cuz i seriously miss all of you guys.
& also, my ticket writing services are currently closed, obviously lmao.
Last edited by swampfox; 10-15-2013 at 10:51 AM.
Last edited by simmie; 10-29-2013 at 08:00 PM.
Dammit, stupid international texting fees D;
I love you too Lau <3 I miss you and your fun craziness.
Please focus on school though, since THIS IS YOUR FUCKING MAJOR.
We're all rooting for you
I know how ya feel, I was there before. You just have to look at what you spend your time and energy on. If its hurting your schoolwork, you have to figure out how to change it. I can tell you now that getting Pokemon was probably a terrible decision, but you probably know that! Haha
You're not too stupid for the major, you just might have to put a little more effort into it. Or maybe the amount f time you put in isn't the problem, maybe it's what you do during that time. I'm a very visual learner, if I have to sit and read forever ill eventually just zone out and not pick up anything I read. You might just have to change up how you study and then wonder why you never did that before. Maybe. -shrug-
hang in there!
I was so wondering where you were these past few weeks. ;o;
You need to cool down about your studies, being stressed is just gonna get things worse. The question you need to ask yourself is, do you LIKE what you're studying? If the answer is yes, then there sure are solutions for you to improve your marks. And if the answer is no, then it might be why it doesn't go well even if you put efforts in your work.
About Pokemon, I can't help as I bought the X version for myself and I'm way too addicted to stop playing it.
Last edited by simmie; 10-29-2013 at 08:00 PM.
ty bby c: that really means a lot.
this wasn't really meant to be a "COME FEEL SORRY FOR ME" board, just wanted to let my friends know where i've been.
ily so much. thanks for that post.
that made me feel better. <3
ty, i didn't know his new username lmfao.
and YES!! honestly though i hardly ever have the willpower to get online anymore lmfao.
i usually just come home and eat/sleep/do homework.
but give it to me anyways so we can talk when i am online.
omg imy. and yes, i love my major, but it's hard.
and my schedule right now is chemistry, biology, calculus, and western civ.
so it's pretty demanding. i wanna get done asap though so i'm gonna be doing full time school. /shrug
i know i can do it, it's just hard and everything else happening in my life right now is pulling me down, yanno?
Last edited by simmie; 10-29-2013 at 07:59 PM.
I'm sure it's gonna be okay, you're smart enough to do whatever you want. <3