I am feeling so low today.

[Kay]

My girlfriend and I broke up this morning. Like, she is looking for a new place to live broke up. I don't think I have ever been this profoundly sad before. Please tell me your breakup stories so I know this will eventually be over..

Not looking for pity, just advice. Please, no rude comments, I am already upset enough I don't need that on top of it. She is also on parole so if she doesn't find a new place to live, she goes to jail or a halfway house. I can't live with the guilt of sending someone to jail.

I love her so much, I really, really do. For the past two years, the sun rose and set with her, and that was the way I wanted it. When she is here, I can't imagine leaving her. But the moment I drop her off or she leaves, I wonder what I am still doing if I am so unhappy. She has been feeling the same way, apparently. Also, if she leaves, I literally have NO way to get in touch with her. No phone or facebook on her end. I can't figure out what the right decision is, I am so scared of being alone.

Then I walk in the door and just after I finish saying "Hi, how was your first day?" He starts on me because I left the playstation on (I was watching a movie, and left to drop her off at work 3 minutes away..) and that the dog was apparently chewing on the wall, and this is all my fault.

I am really just having a SHIT SHIT day and I have no weed to even distract me from all this.

[wrath]

My girlfriend and I broke up about a week and a half ago. It's been rough. I certainly don't know if there's any advice I can give, but I do know that sleeping is always good when you don't have any weed to numb yourself with. Personally I can't smoke weed anymore, but back in the day that's how I dulled the emotions down. All I can say is try to develop some friends during this period of time. Friends that will let you talk and cry on their shoulder when necessary and actually give a damn about you. And then don't forget those friends when you don't necessarily need them to lean on anymore. I've been hit with some double-fuckery because the people I expected to lean on have been all but shit to me, and there has been maybe one or two people who I didn't expect to give a frack that have actually been guiding me through this whole thing.

So yeah, real friends + sleep. And then there's always the interwebs to distract you as well. But the part when you have to be a socially functioning person, that's the part that sucks.

[Kay]

My girlfriend and I broke up about a week and a half ago. It's been rough. I certainly don't know if there's any advice I can give, but I do know that sleeping is always good when you don't have any weed to numb yourself with. Personally I can't smoke weed anymore, but back in the day that's how I dulled the emotions down. All I can say is try to develop some friends during this period of time. Friends that will let you talk and cry on their shoulder when necessary and actually give a damn about you. And then don't forget those friends when you don't necessarily need them to lean on anymore. I've been hit with some double-fuckery because the people I expected to lean on have been all but shit to me, and there has been maybe one or two people who I didn't expect to give a frack that have actually been guiding me through this whole thing.

So yeah, real friends + sleep. And then there's always the interwebs to distract you as well. But the part when you have to be a socially functioning person, that's the part that sucks.

I know, I have to go to work today and put a fucking smile on when I feel like curling up in a ball and crying. I need to smoke, seriously.

[wrath]

I think it's more annoying when the random fucks that don't give a shit either way smile with their beady little eyes and ask "How are you doing?" as if they already know you're about to implode.

[Kay]

I dont even know if I can do it honestly. I haven't stopped crying since this morning. I might have to call out today.

[wrath]

Yeah the first day back to work was rough. If you can afford to call out, do it. I'm totally behind that decision.

[Kay]

You know what? I am really not concerned anymore. I looked at her account on som stupid forum from a month ago talking about how lazy and annoying I am and that she doesn't want to have sex anymore because I'm fat even though I was FAT WHEN WE FUCKING MET. It makes SO MUCH SENSE DOESNT IT. Sorry, I am just fuming right now. What an asshole seriously.

As fucking pissed as I am, I am so fucking hurt. She is supposed to be the person who loves me no matter what! I didnt even gain any weight since we have been together, and we have had plenty of sex, trust me. I don't get it this is something she knows I am sensitive about and she picks that. Why be with me then??

[wrath]

Weird. My ex said the same sort of things. I mean, I am fat so I can't really complain, but I was the same fatness four years ago when the relationship started so lol! It's not like it was a surprise! Hey if you have skype and just need to chat, I think we can relate pretty well right now lmao.

[Kay]

Yeah sure but I dont have skype :/

[wrath]

Why not? Skype is free and fun.