I just spent four hours and over $200 on Christmas presents.
I am so fucking tired.
I'm super pumped that I'm finally done with all of it, though! I can't wait to give everybody their gifts.
I only bought one thing for myself, a dress, but I couldn't help it omg. I saw it through the window and it was only $25 (I expected it to be $60+) and I fell in love. Maybe I'll post pix!
Oh and I got a tank top too but it was only $2 after the sale price so I don't count that.
My family gets me a lot of nice things and I'm really grateful to them for a lot so I feel like I need to get them each something nice.
I could only afford about $30-40 on each person though.
Good grief... $30-40? My family is cheap. They're griping about $20 xD
Granted, we've got like.... 20 people on each side of the family. I have a huge family 0.o
And we just started our Christmas shopping today. And we got like... 2 presents. We're going to Austin tomorrow. We better finish it -_-
I'm sure they would be fine with cheaper gifts, but idk. They spend a lot on me throughout the year, not to mention during Christmas, and they've even spent a lot on Kayla too for her gifts. I just want to give back and give them each something they'll like, which I'm positive I achieved.
Besides, Kayla has to buy gifts for all her family so our deal was she buys for hers, I buy for mine, and we each get to put our name on everything LOL.
lol yeah. Some of the crew are younger, but most of them are at least my age + the parents and grandparents. And I'm a bit spoiled by my family. I love them. When my depression isn't making me feel like they're compete assholes
I always feel bad when I go through my whole "I completely hate my family" stage. I mean I know I'm still a teen, so it's fairly normal, but still, I feel bad about it. I tend to think in extremes. I either love someone or I hate them. There's no in between. So I'm like if I don't like them a little bit sometimes, I feel like I don't love them, which makes me feel guilty because I know I love them. A lot :/
lol it's making me... I can't think of the word.
But I had this really long conversation with a friend of mine about that. Eh the family thing. I try to psychoanalyze myself entirely too much in general though. But I do ramble a bit.
I'm just 19. But yeah I overthink things just a bit much sometimes. Sometimes it isn't all that bad, but sometimes it's just like omg I need to shut up.