Dear Katia,

"Some people believe, there is a one
The one who points, your way to the sun.
A person they believe, makes them complete
The one who will support, when facing defeat

'You are my angel', my one and only
My forever love, so we'll never be lonely.
You've brought to my life, all your love and care
It made me see, when I realized how rare . .
It is to meet your angel, or their lifetime one
Through you and my children, whose life has begun.

What you've done, you've illuminated my soul
It's you and your love, that has made me whole.
The feel of your love, your soft touch and caress
We're tight so close, your heart beats in my chest.

All that we have, always felt missing before
Though I love you today, tomorrow it will be more.
Our love is life, we are the strongest tree
Which will always grow forever, like you and me.

You have opened my heart and held it so dear
You are my angel and will always keep it near.
You have seen my ups and cared when I was low.
'You are my angel', I just need you to know.

You entered my life, through a ray of sun above
And when we leave, we will leave together in love
My love for you, has become my reason to be
I hope one day you'll find, your angel in me."

I love you, katia. I have always loved you.

During the time of my banishment, I pondered over how I would go without seeing you. I've cried, I've bled over my love for you. I wrote a log of my days without you.

Day 1. I can't be without her, my heart has been torn to shreds, my life over.

Day 2. I still have screenshots of her posts, I must find them.

Day 3. My computer died on me this day. I can't go on.

Day 4. I bought a new computer and paid 200$ to have all of her posts screenshotted for me.

Day 5. I still hug my computer imagining it's her.

Day 6. I've been alerted that it is now a temporary ban

Day 7. I found another poem that expresses only a fraction of my love for you.

"Love is not a thing you get a lot
but love the girl you have got....
she is always there to care for you
the thing we have is oh so true....

She is so sweet and kind
and she's the only girl on my mind....
our love is not a game
we love each other just the same....

She is my princess and my life
I can't wait for the day to make her my wife....
then I can be with her 24/7
and she is the girl that I take to heaven...."

Day 8. I keep finding poems, but they never express my true feelings..

"I know I have an angel.
She was sent from heaven above.
To protect me everyday.
And give me lots of love.

she there when I'm lonely.
she sits by me when I cry.
she encourages me when I'm down.
and makes me want to try."

Day 9. I found another..

"The way l love you
I never really know how you feel
I can't read your mind
I just keep waiting
Take me to your heart
Show me where to start
Let me play the part of your first love.
Oh, l know how down deep you love me
But are you ever gonna love me
The way l love you?"

Day 10. only half an hour to go as I write this. The feeling of nervousness and adrenaline is making me sick. I'm going to push through for you, katia. I love you.

Katia, I love you. I want to be with you..

Katia, will you please marry me?

I always knew that love would come find me someday
but never did I know that it would be you who was headed my way
you caught me off guard and took me by surprise
but you simply captivated me, the same way you do when I look into your eyes

It's true that every good and perfect gift is from above
you were presented to me as a beautifully packaged gift full of humor, talent, intelligence, beauty and love
"it isn't finding the perfect person but learning to see an imperfect person perfectly"
we all have our flaws but when I view you through my eyes, perfection is all I see

From when you laugh to when you're upset, I still love the little things you do
especially hearing you laugh and seeing your nose wrinkle the same way mine does too
coming into this relationship has been hard at times but we've made it through
I know as long as we're on this journey together, there's nothing that we can't do.

Sometimes I wonder if what we have is too good to be true
too scared to get my heart broken and scared of the thought of losing you
but in the end, I trust in the author and perfecter of what I believe
because what we ask for in Him, we in return shall receive

"Where your treasure is, your heart will be also" is how the saying goes
I may not know what tomorrow may bring, for God is the only one who knows
the one thing I do know is that you are my one and only
a treasure in my heart that I want to devote my whole life to completely

I know I don't need to prove my feelings to know they're true
because what I've known in my past, doesn't come close to the experience I've shared with you
I've had the experience of being in relationships before
however, this is the first time I've been truly happy... I couldn't ask for anything more
it's an honor to know that I am yours, as you are mine
and I trust God that He'll bring us together in His beautiful time

For now, I'll be waiting patiently for that day when we'll be together
that precious moment in time when I'll say, "it's you that I want to be with forever"
God made everything beautiful, precious and new
just as beautiful and precious as the day will be, when I look into your eyes and say, "I Love You"

Signed lovingly,

- Ron